What They Carried…

At Thermopylae on the final morning, when the last surviving Spartans knew they were all going to die, they turned to the warrior Dienekes and asked what they should hold in their minds to keep their courage strong. He instructed his comrades: “Fight for this alone: the man who stands at your shoulder. He is…

Silencing The Voice

“When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you.” -African ProverbMy biggest enemy resides inside… it’s a voice I’ve had with me since I was a child.  But it’s a sneaky, deconstructing voice.  It doesn’t tell me overtly that I am wrong, or insignificant, or that the things I do and fail…

Just One Day: Perfection and Zero

Coming off big races, I often find myself suffering from the inexplicable hangover that follows.  The letdown as days go by and the euphoria passes.  The realization that the medal hanging on the wall is what I have left and now it’s time to refocus and find a new unicorn to chase down.  The bliss,…

The Spartan Beast

I started this race report on the plane from Washington, D.C. to Omaha.  I was writing old school….on a pad and paper I had purchased at the airport.  I sat in my seat, sun setting, the lights dim in the cabin just staring at the blank page in front of me.  Where do I begin? …

My Friends Are Awesome…and Why Sometimes that Sucks

My grown up job involves me working for a racing company.  Like, not drive racing, like running racing.  I’ve been an endurance athlete for a while now and have a big race coming up on Saturday.  Here is the part of the story where I set you, the reader, up with all my excuses…  So…

The Difference

We dream, we yearn, we wish.  We envision a life for ourselves that perfect, complete and full of all the things that make us happy.  We drop to our knees, pray for strength, beg for signs, ask for the things that are just out of reach.  We tell friends, family, anyone who will listen that…

Finding the Finish Line

I love to run.  I love to race.  I’ve missed it.  I haven’t raced since May.  That will soon change, I have a busy upcoming schedule. I race the next two weekends.  A three mile run with my friends, my running family – the Mud Mafia.  I’ve missed running with them… My traveling for work,…

I Have to Believe

This is the beginning of History – a walk back to one’s own self. They call it sometimes ‘the eternal return. – MatisyahuWe fight ourselves, sabotage efforts, make excuses.  We stumble, we fall, we fail.  WE do things and put ourselves into situations that will break us down knowing even as it happens that it’s…

To Be… (AND not to be anymore)

One of my first posts on my journey was entitled, “To Be.”  It really resonated with me as I wrote it actually and I believe in the weight and depth of the words I wrote but there is a whole other side. “Breathing deeply, she forgot the cold, the dead weight of others, the craziness…

My NEW Boyfriend, Gym

It’s no secret how I feel about gyms.  I love them.  I really do.  After an extended time with my previous gym, I made the difficult decision to move on with my training life.  I’ve got a new gym to call my own and truth be told what got me in the end was three…